well, blogging just doesn't seem to be my thing anymore, does it?
is it anyone's?
i've been doing a lot of thinking for the past few months. a lot. my mind is constantly going about sociology and feminism and poststructuralism art theory and manet, the painter of modern life, and borromini and japanese botany. this is the first time that i've had to stretch my mind this far. it's very empowering, actually, to learn how to really think. and man is it hard work.
i feel a lot more directed in my career path and opportunities, and i feel a lot more assurance that i can actually do this. there is a lot of judgement passed on majors and i know that when i tell people i'm studying art history, a very small percentage of them actually respect that. but it doesn't matter, does it? because i know what i'm doing and why i'm doing it, and i have never set out to be practical, anyway.
what i am setting out to do is to work hard and to give art more voice and make an personal impression on people that just simply can't be done by good business or whatever else is a "smart" major.
let's not judge people based on things like this. it's hard, because even i do it to others, and i'm in the same situation. but i'm glad when people follow their dreams, whether it is in economics or the arts or science, it's such a great thing to be passionate. i thank the heavens that there's people who want to be doctors and accountants and laborers because if the world was filled with people like me, we wouldn't last a day, would we?
but also thank the heavens that there are people like me, or people like i'm trying to be. thank the heavens that there's people who are so very invested in beauty and truth.